Sometimes I feel like people just don't get me. It seems like the world around me is dull and colorless and not very real at times. I feel numb, too and I don't know why. Why do I make myself bleed and hurt to feel more alive and acceptable. What have I done to myself? I want to be stronger, but instead I am getting to know how weak I am becoming as I carefully destroy my body. I know this is wrong. I know I'm better than this. Every day is a struggle that no one but me and God understand. I am healing slowly, with His help. Someday, everything will be alright.